You won’t know what I’m capable of until I’ve done it … so I do more and speak less
What is it?
It’s not about whether or not you know if i’m capable…
I spent so long as a child, thighs pressed firmly into the concrete ground, as tiny stones mimicking granite and quartz rose impressed themselves upon my tender
flesh, embedding grooves and disfigured tattoos against the supple tone of my impressionable
skin, and i squinted with lash shaded eyes at the silver disc that hung in the pale blue primary school
sky, dreaming about what I could be
Because it never was who.
I wondered what I could be and whether it would entertain the category of worth that we all seem to perceive, subconsciously aware of the innate deceit that plagues that concept of maturity and with it success, excess –
For speech is an action.
Once again you elide my weapon, specifically chosen, bestowed upon me as a precious sword engraved with golden gilt, bejewelled by the dexterity of a tongue and the intellect of a wit that has surpassed the bondage of chains
that strip one’s mind like a flayed hide of any
power to control this spiralling world concerned and fuelled by the need to attain each individuals selfish desire…
Yet when I speak i declare the power of a word to transform and transfer, my action I bind within my speech as with the sound of my voice I am relentlessly setting the captives free, proclaiming victory and instituting justice. As I flash my teeth I shine down
beauty and a fierce hope – you only wish you could cope with the unbound sounds of my voice as I break your silent action and in the process I don’t bring it but give it life.
What did you say?
I spoke right? You won’t know what i’m capable of until i’ve done it – but if I remain silent you’ll never look to see the gestures that are lost in the blanket of an omnipresent silence
Besides, as I sat staring at that primary school sun, buttocks pressed into the concrete ground cemented for activities that would be ‘fun’, i knew that it didn’t matter if you knew what I was capable of – in my mind i’d already done the action, right now i’m just illustrating the person.