Monthly Archives: November 2012

#291 ~ Psalm Series. 5

Not stealthily through the night

but in broad daylight trouble and anguish found me

piercing like the harsh rays that shook my eyes awake.

my heart was laid barren

and depression walked in

cramping my grey matter

into contorted figures of

tremoring terror.

Your commands are my delight?

…well, they give me the strength at least

to fight these daily battles

and see a portion

of a gentler light.

Psalm 119 vs 143: “Trouble and anguish have found me out, but your commandments are my delight.”

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#290 ~ Psalm Series.4

A fraud. That is the label that I exfoliate from my skin each morning

peeling blood and fat with epidermis that flowers and litters the shower block

before I sit creaming.

Dawn has hardly broken, but I feel your wind striking my chin as I cycle with broken chains to something

that really is a glorified lake, narrow, and slippery, like my promises of authenticity.

I can rise to ride, but to read your Word and listen to your distant voice

which booms in the cracks and shadows – I have not the strength.

Do you despise me? Grow angry or annoyed?

Or are you patiently waiting for me to hear you within the void

of my deep and gluttonous slumber?

Psalm 119 vs 148-9: ” My eyes are awake before the watches of the night, that I may meditate on your promise. “

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#289 ~ Psalm Series. 3

Consider how I love your precepts!

Yet as I peer in the mirror, I am the faithless one that i contort and view with disgust.

I can recite the repentance prayer, the serenity prayer, the Hail Mary prayer

I can recite the Eucharist and declare it to be and mean all that there

is to life

I can state my love, all-consuming, for your Word

But do I act?

Dare I act?

Am I the talking drum, hollow like the doun doun

as I swerve from your statues

swerve from your law, which I claim to adore…

Psalm 119 vs 159: “Consider how I love your precepts” vs 156: “But I do not swerve from your testimonies.” vs 158 “I look at the faithless with disgust.”

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#288 ~ Psalm Series. 2

They tell me it’s – I will worship

For He is worthy to be praised.

Yet so often I say – I feel worship

Because I look at it as my day.

 

Psalm 119 vs 161: “Princes persecute me without cause, but my heart stands in awe of your words.”

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#287 ~ Psalm Series.1

Rather than cattle

I walk these streets like chattel

one simple inversion/insertion

another consonant, and the bondage, the chains the slavery to material gain is made

permanent.

I walk these streets like Soweto

paved in cobble stones, Lauryn’s invocation of Gippeto

holding me, in position, stringed to the percussions

which chime the beats of this chattel-esque procession

begging with each chink,

that you would find – and redeem,

me.

Psalm 119 vs 176 “I have gone astray like a lost sheep; seek your servant, for I do not forget your commandments.”

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#286 ~ An Apology to Reading

Dear Readers,

So I said I’d write something every day, then in the space of one month things seemed to go kaput. It appears I left my words with my heart and the shade of my former self in another continent.

A facetious response? Contrite? Probably.

I experienced a lot whilst working in South Africa, and actually didn’t give myself ample time to process and reevaluate before launching head and neck first into University. But a lot of incredible and challenging things have happened. So – in order to redeem myself and keep you, the lovely audience inspired and motivated by my writing, I will be doing a Stretch Post called: The Psalm Series. It will have a line for everyday I’ve missed and stretch into a modern-day Psalm of some kind, about a range of topical issues. So, what you have to do, is wait till it’s all done, hopefully by tonight, then read from the last post to the first (I’ll be positing in reverse order). It’ll be fun and exciting, and will also takes us to the present day.

I’ll also be dropping the last instalment of 100 words and a picture. so be excited, be inspired and thank you for your support these past 11 months – only one left :)